Friday, November 25, 2011'♥
I have to get this out of chest:
Tday's the release of retest results. So you either get advanced or retained. I was really happy because my 2 girlfs manage to advanced; THEY ARE GOING TO BE JC2 NEXT YEAR! And then his girl came out. She retained. It was then i saw his real worried look, looking for her everywhere. He couldn't concentrate talking to anyone else. Her name was all around his head, yeah, i somehow manage to see those, magical eyes. I can't show my sad face at that time right, or he'll start sighing again. But i was trembling, hands shaking and all. It became a natural impact every time i see them, yes, that was how bad my situation was. Can't help though, have to face this for another year. I wasn't happy when i knew she retained cause his sad face made my heart drop literally. Speechless again, my hands are still trembling while typing this. Im having band now, but i came out to type this so that i won't feel all so troubled later. I can't cry out to relief my chest. And the vomitting feeling came back, totally suck! Why so weak!!! D: Alright, going back to band! Cyaaaa! Wish me luck, and him too :)
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So not moving on D:
Hi, readers! Well, I'm sure if there is. But, I'm back again! This is so lame to why i start blogging again, knowing that it's used-to-be-hot-favourite, but yeah, I'm still blogging. I have many things bottled up, maybe that's why. Yes, i talk to my friends. I appreciate their comments and advice, i love them, but thr's always this feeling that you hope someone really understands your position, the state you're in. He dated that girl, on 19th. I know, i should not care. He's serious this time, he wouldn't date a girl alone, and say that he just wants to be friends with her. Well, i won't elaborate much on this topic. But there's this question always bugging me, till now i can't answer myself. What if, he really takes his move and ask this girl to be his girlfriend? Can i take it? Will i smile and move on, congratulate that he got himself a really pretty and happy-go-lucky girl? I really want this, i want him to find a new girl, hug him when he needs one. Cause i better be prepared, he'll probably take action soon. I wanna stand up again. When he's gonna tell me he got her already, I'm gonna give him a really big hug and feel nothing about it, tell him, she's a lucky girl. Yes, that shall be it :) I will be fine.... probably.
Thursday, November 10, 2011'♥
TODAY MY LIFE BEGINS.
Well, i don't know why i put that as my title but yeah, I'm constantly reminding myself that today will be a brand new day. Apparently, its not working. T.T After so many months, I'm still grieving over the same guy, and that's kinda stupid. Friends has always been asking me to move on, he isn't worth it, blahblahblah. Yes, i know all these but i love this guy, i really do. Everyday is crazy, but yeah, i have to live that way. I tried all methods to stop thinking about the same old thing, however, it looks like they all failed. I want to ask him out, yet asking him out send my heart thumping like mad, just like his my crush or something. It isn't like the past anymore, i can see him anytime i want, he'll just appear. Well, i guess he has a new girl in his heart now. I don't know how far they've went, but i have a hunch things will blossom between them? Yeah, i think so. Although he doesn't admit to it, but yeah, he probably like this girl a lot. Ahaha, silly me. I really find myself stupid, like super stupid. He got me falling down again and again, yet i keep trying to stand up and keep trying to get him back. REAL SILLY right? Just like a cockroach, like what people always say, 打不死的蟑螂精神! Tomorrow is 11/11/11! Should i do a cliche action, and start posting a wish? Yes i should, but i'll do that in advance, so that my wish would be queuing right in front of the line of wishes. AHAHAHA!
I wish, he'll be happy, and happy and forever happy. YES!
Good-a-bye! I'll see when i get a feel to post again!
Well, i don't know why i put that as my title but yeah, I'm constantly reminding myself that today will be a brand new day. Apparently, its not working. T.T After so many months, I'm still grieving over the same guy, and that's kinda stupid. Friends has always been asking me to move on, he isn't worth it, blahblahblah. Yes, i know all these but i love this guy, i really do. Everyday is crazy, but yeah, i have to live that way. I tried all methods to stop thinking about the same old thing, however, it looks like they all failed. I want to ask him out, yet asking him out send my heart thumping like mad, just like his my crush or something. It isn't like the past anymore, i can see him anytime i want, he'll just appear. Well, i guess he has a new girl in his heart now. I don't know how far they've went, but i have a hunch things will blossom between them? Yeah, i think so. Although he doesn't admit to it, but yeah, he probably like this girl a lot. Ahaha, silly me. I really find myself stupid, like super stupid. He got me falling down again and again, yet i keep trying to stand up and keep trying to get him back. REAL SILLY right? Just like a cockroach, like what people always say, 打不死的蟑螂精神! Tomorrow is 11/11/11! Should i do a cliche action, and start posting a wish? Yes i should, but i'll do that in advance, so that my wish would be queuing right in front of the line of wishes. AHAHAHA!