Sunday, January 15, 2012'♥
Just Today
Yes, as my title suggest, it's just today... I'm feeling pretty down. I don't know why. I suddenly missed him a lot, our past especially. How he used to msg me last time, compared to now. How he used to treat me, compared to now. The difference really hurt a lot, cause I'm sure nobody wants to be in my shoe. But it's alright! It's better that he treat me like this so i can lead my life better. I think he's leading a pretty good life now. He's having a reunion dinner with his family this coming CNY, really happy for him. Interesting friends to make him happy, another Cheer for him! 2 girls that will always keep him company whenever he needs. He probably made up his mind who he has more feelings for, so another cheer i guess! Hope he makes his move fast though, don't keep that girl waiting. P.S. I don't really like the girl he's into now, she's not a very nice person i realize. But ohwell! Hopefully he will plan a better way of asking instead of just going straight to the point without saying ILY. Cause only a stupid girl like me will fall for. (He told his friend I'm stupid to accept him at that time, and i feel rather ashamed cause i know his friend. But, nvm!) I know I'm not can alr, i didn't regret that though, cause you nvr know if you don't accept at that time, when is he going to ask again. And we wouldn't go through all the "obstacles" which made our r/s more happening and made us love each other more.
Well, i kinda missed him just now, so i texted him. As usual, he took a long time to reply short msges, but its not his fault. Blame me for texting him. I did what he says, expect less. The feeling is odd, cause i know he don't want to reply me at all. He'll probably find me the most irritating Ex-girlfriend he could ever have. But who care, i got used to that feeling alr. His cold treatment bcame part and parcel of my life, i would feel even weirder if he treat me nice. But of course will happy la! Again, EXPECT LESS!!! And yes, i should end this post or i'll really break the guiness record of crying a river! Goodbye readers, he's really a nice guy.
P.S. Gives all my blessings to both of them, i hope she'll be happy, needless to say, HIM too.
